randomnessism

2007-08-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

Sight was something to be conserved for the moments when you really need it; when you were hunting, when you needed strength. It was only when you looked away from a person that you have the truest vision.

Indeed.

The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult. strongly recommended book to indulge.

I can't get good books out of my hands. I'll be glued to it, sucking all the essence and devolving the juicy parts in no time. However as I flipped to the last page and approaches the last sentence, I have this inexplicable sadness enveloping me. Even after I've finished the book, I'll bring it close to my chest. I'm That INTO a book. go figure.

any books to recommend?

To-do list:
1) sulk on Sunday as Ugly Betty won't be back until God Knows When!!
2) perfect my three-pointers when I'm drunk. I amazed myself sometimes
3) slap senses into that uncouthly girl
4) figure out why u and i are together only on the keyboard
5) hunt St. Cupid down so that I can be shot

2007-08-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

gee I realise I don't have the paitence to post pictures, rant and comment anymore. I mean, what's the point of rifling evey emotion out? I'll have to annoyed again, happy again, depressed again... its like living my life the second time. Seriously, its pointless. I want to live my life ONCE. Firstly, my life isn't that compelling to start with. Secondly, I want to move on and look ahead instead of constantly lugging a baggage of memories behind. Lastly, like what I've mentioned earlier, I don't want to experience those extreme emotions twice, I rather let them fade with time.

haji lane. awesome!

I've easily screwed CT (:

2007-07-30T15:34:00.001+08:00

irritable. DO NOT provoke me. I'm just not the nicest person on world if you do so now, and for the following days.

MEAN. that's what I'm becoming. especially to those bitch and bastard that totally get on my nerves.

*switches to the nicer, kinder and friendlier WXQ*

School has been rather okay, excluding the work and expectations that tag along. Oh so what is left when work is out of the picture? socialising, idling, sifting out the oil from our canteen food... what a bore!

okay. what I'm driving at is I can't wait to play touch again!!! I'm finding it hard to contain the urge. ARGH! Common test should also be charged with Deprivation of Pleasure. WTH!!! jvkfickdmdkgibmfv!!!

I'm seriously looking forward to thursday though theres lit paper. dreads to the sum of infinty! but what comes after that will be revitalising(:(: SHOPPING!!!!!!!!! and chatter chatter yadayada.

till then. I've gotta save Commom test from another charge by slaughtering Maths beforehand. I won't let it laid its claws on my skin.

2007-07-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

I realise I have a routine. that is i blog on fridays

I managed to catch up some sleep this week, probably the fruit of my efficient time management(:(: Well at least I don't fall asleep during chem lectures, which I conclude they are sleep-inducing.

shit. I'm bombarded with random thoughts this entire week that I digress easily. Like now, I've plenty to write but can't seem to organise them properly into one single paragraph. Maybe its due to the discretion in my mind where I'm trying to weigh the magnitude of my words/actions. Or is it GP wielding its influence on me? My thoughts also often come to an abrupt halt and I can't link it to the next. So when you're conversing with me, please pardon my sidetracking and distort line of argument.

Are we chasing an impossible dream? If not, why are we giving up so easily? Partings will inevitably leave a hole that's too deep to be filled, espeacially when you mean alot to me

2007-07-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

chocolates can mend a broken heart. wahhahahaha.. they make me HIGH too. esp delicious ones!!!!

woo... these past few days were a maelstrom of emotions. there were deadlines to meet( I'd rather have the try-line) assignments to complete, late nights that made me lethargic, before& after AGM... two weeks can sure contain plenty of stuff.

the team with 1 missing member!!! QIAOYI!!!!!!
i think coach is delirious till the extend she started doing weird stuff.. eh.

wooo!!!!!!! AGM!!!! seniors, your affections for each other and devotion to the game and touch is totally mind-blowing and inspiring(:(: i feel the J1s have tonnes to learn esp since you all have set such a high benchmark for the fellowing batches... heh and now we have TEAM SOCKS!! not really since they are of different colours but when we take off our boots, TOUCH'07!!!

forever my love.

food for thought. they really do love me SHITEEEE!!! canteen is so not the place to sing bday song and cut cake.

actually i know there's plenty of people who really love me. but it takes my birthday to realise they love me to a BLOODY ENORMOUS EXTEND!!! i received msg from people whom i will forget their birthdays yet they still remembers mine.

the downside of not updating regularly, what I'm writing is accumulative and summarise. its the aftermath of STM and the nature of my character.

tmr is parent-teacher meeting. how dreadful. i've not mental preparations for my atrocious results... what will mdm tay tell my mama?

i no longer have THAT desire now. at least i don't feel so strongly about it anymore. might be the heavy workload and pressure, or its just that i've straighten my thoughts. when its here, it will come to me(:(:

2007-06-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

I get alot of if-you -don't-smile-you-look-damn fierce/proud/unapproachable. Maybe its the Only Child gesture. I'm so used to being alone and keeping to myself most of the time, with no annoying siblings bickering with me. In other words, I'm solemn and probably hard to decipher(haha.. I can play hard-to-get kinda girl!) The misjudgement is just nudging me slightly, I don't really see the need to change. I like it when my face is expressionless cause you'll never know what's going through my mind(:

We got a talk from nicole and linin today after the game. Talked about linking up. Time to gravitate towards TEAM instead of ME.

GOSH! I spotted yet another classic example of Fat-boy-turns-into-Hot-dude. Well, not exactly hot. How i describe how I'm feeling right at this precise moment? Remorse, envy, surprised, mixed with a huge dose of admiration?? Its equates to a second chance.

women have such unique intuition that it amazes me. factual or not, i guess it'll show in time.

2007-06-21T16:53:00.001+08:00

painting on the wall creates a dimension. smashing!

even the toilet door is a beautifully protraiture

cute little boy staring at me (X lunch at Bistro One Zero Three. the location is quite conceal. its at the end of the shophouses and the enlongate yellow signboard is cramping its space. but don't underestimate the satisfaction the food can give you over there(:
Balsamic mushroom for starters

Chicken with lemon as side dishBBQ pork ribs
Salmon and crabmeat

HAHA
i'm not focusing at whatever is in my hands at that moment. Damn frustrated, near the verge of tears. But i swallowed them.

GOSH!!

2007-06-13T17:40:00.000+08:00

mid-week wednesday. welcome back to reality wxq. where have you been? down the dumps or hovering in the clouds? one rather experience person told me that it's fine for youngster to not know what they want. cause if they do, they will not be young anymore. Bull's eye.

i love these red seats. they even come in shades of red

after training..
fortune is such an irony
qyxq.
we have long legs!!

shades of brown(:

NTL on 30may

coach.

check out our tan!!

touch is becoming more challenging at the moment. i realise touch teach us skills we can apply both in a game and outside a game. or is it coach's good? haha. i think she's awesome(:(: i shall start setting my personal short term goals.
-master basics: dump@the side, scoop and pass off asap, use momentum when pushing off def...)
-stop trying to score when i'm the dummyhalf!! *drills into me thick head
-keep talking even when i'm tired

recently i kept seeing lovey-dovey couples grazing intensely into each others' eyes, 20 fingers twine into one fist of love and many other stuff that couples do. not that i'm consciously noticing them, just that they stand out. maybe its their body language?

why this sudden interest? i realised i'm in contact with several healthy and strong relationship. i sort of watch them met, went to their weddings, visit them at the hospital when their first baby was due and cuddled those tiny precious thing in my arms. though i'm not their mother, i was enveloped with warmth and joy that can equate to that of a mother's love? i saw two happy people at a happy event with a happy ending(not so but you get the drift), makes me want more for my life.

*insert new expression*

is it me or her? she's totally rubbing me the wrong way. its a matter of my paitence. really. sometimes i really feel like screaming in her face. (this person i'm talking about is not my mama although sometimes she fits the bill)

2007-06-10T17:09:00.001+08:00

a date with Trex. RAHH!
Chronicles of camp. Warning: do not read on if you're looking for entertainment.

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alrighty, please fasten your safety belts as we are about to embark on an exciting and thrilling adventure. i wish

our late night saviour. they should have this in sch. a savoury getaway

i wanna be in the limelight!
HA she made 'sunglasses' for her teddy as she placed him outside to be sunkissed

my new expression. notice this space for more *insert new expression here*
distort mouth. she's actually burpping
classic
yellow eyebags
horny corny

scandalicious

will she fit into the crease of his elbrow?? hehe

i believe its a sign?

this pair of heels killed me a million times on saturday

i shall write more next time. its just picture today.

2007-06-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

i have the vibes for this song. top on my list(:

okay. I've spent 2hours doing maintenance. done a little marketing in the morning. haha.. i'm cooking tonight again(:(:

i really have alot of assign to do. dread!! time management is screaming in my face but procrastination and inertia are still in my league, reluntant to leave. how?

i doubt i'll be able to do any work in the camp. my friends will be a distraction, the snacks, games and fun we're gonna have is a helluva temptation.

argh!!! i can't wait for jc to some to an end!!!

2007-06-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

dine@ paulaner brauhaus.. woohoo.. eye opener!
its damn romantic in the night with all the warm lights and lovey-dovey music. !!! this is a pic in the afternoon
i conclude that German Black Beer is one of the best beer(:(:
they have like the BEST butter(i don't usually enjoy eating butter due to their greasy texture and it makes me repulsive) and this other paste in pink. i forgot what that is. some pig stuff.

crispy salad

grilled knuckle
sausage sampler together with AMAZING mashed potato. like SMASHING!!!! i in love with it as much as the butter. do you know where can i buy it in the supermarket??
i went back to sch for GP. yes. my attention span is that short. who can i blame? its 3.5hours okay!

woo.. i love the new lappy. haha.

2007-06-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

this is what i call SATISFACTION!!
cousin's bday's bash(:(: great food!
the aftermath.
today, qy and i decided to brave the heavy rain and made a dash to the porch of my building. well, we underestimated the distance between the busstop and the porch so we got drenched. partially also due to the sky that kept tearing like nobody's business!!!
qy: at least we got to your house alive

nationals on wedesday was disappointing yet encouraging in another way. we got into the Cups semi so that place us in the top4 position right?? for a young green team like us, i consider that quite an achievemen(:(: GIRLS!! there's the nxt NTL so lets work our butts firm yar? ehh.. no link. inside joke.

my nonchalance is really amazing. though my heart still races and my capillaries constrict whenever it happens, i'm still able to ignore them, calm myself down and go back to sleep. its becoming frequent, perhaps that's the cause of my indifferent attitude. i admit, its no longer top my priority list. i have lon accepted the fact. call me cruel or heartless, or brainwashed, i know what i'm doing and what i've heard.

2007-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

there wasn't much sun todau but still, i am burnt! my exposed parts are red! it created horrendous tanline!!!!!! oh my oh my... this calls for tanning session babes!

new boots gave me blisters. darn! diverted part of my attention away from touch. damn disappointed in myself. i really hope this won't happen on wed!!! jersey... what can i say??

this national mean something to me. i want to prove my parents wrong. and all the teachers who are biased against this sport. though i know our chances migh not be there, still there's no harm in harouring hopes right? lets just see yar(:

FILLED TO THE BRIM!

i bit my boots (x

NTL!!!! excites!!!! sr and bbss. woo~

2007-05-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

my beloved friend. what had gotten into her?!!
she'll always have this look.
i miss this seating position

ncc room which apparently is not visible
this plate of rice+saliva-dripping chicken+fried egg cost me 70CENTS only. beat that!
and the ever so good natured ahma fried the egg specially for me and pat! really moved!
the below are really nonsencial stuff we do. that's what truckloads of tests and assignments do to us. forgive me yar? right up is QIAOLING on the loose
von killer eyes are missing.
I'M LOCKED OUT!

i fail terribly at being a twit(is it spell like this?) or not? gosh! seriously cannot stand this picture!
why this attitude? is it because i finish your seaweed tibit??
graphng tech.

it seems i can only connect with myselfher twin.
who stepped on the cat poo?!! we stink the whole day!
WOO~ i'm in the team! though we might not win anything, i'll still give it all. jersey boots.. all epitome of bondage. they are coming(:(: pardon my ambious goal(:(:

finally. a break from school though its not at all a break. but still, better than nothing. hollys will be cramped to the MAX with extra lessons, trainings, camp and PW!
system overloading!!! ACCESS DENY! haha.. only for certain people only(:

shopping tmr! woo~ i pray for safety!!

2007-05-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

My proficiency in language is at such low level that it will have detrimental effects on my GP grades. whatever happens to the i-want-smashing-good-results?

i find blog-reading intriguing to the extend of attempting to decipher the 'deep dark truth' in what people wrote. i already do not have adequate time and yet i'm addicted to this morbid habit. the downside of technology. too much information till i digress from my studies. i know this is the place where misinterpretations and misunderstandings brew cause people take the issues mentioned in the blog seriously. yes. you dictate what you want to share at your own discretion, but sometime you will get carried away and unintentionally forgot to sift our some of your thoughts.

what i'm driving at is, what you read here is what i want you to see. it doesn't actually truthfully reflect my utmost emotions. i admit, i'm shy and hermit, and utterly shamefully protective of myself( this is true)

i cooked dinner today. say its sumptuous!

nationals!! oh my..

2007-05-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO! NTL on 30may!! that's supersonic sports car vavavoom fast!! gosh!! though there's no expectations, its still gonna be intense!! GO GIRLS!! aim high

my sordid motivation. sometimes i wish my life won't be in such staccato state. who is willingly to fill those pauses?

mum asked if i've a boyfriend and is anyone wooing her docile daughter. when did she become so hip?! ha. i've dreamt of this talk since young and it took more than 10years to realise(:

2007-05-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

yeah. i've definitely grown much. in case you're wondering, its not my height sadly. i will be strong this time. no more tears and emo-ing. i should be thrifty in the way i spent my youth on such depressing issue(s). i don't have the money to buy time you see.

i'm such a sucker for beautiful people. so pardon my ogling!!! hahaha..

i'm really anticipating the bond we touch girls will forge. its been a long time since i have this surge of warmth gushing through my veins and capillaries!

these days, i'm often brought back to the past. some haunt me, others delight me. and to filter those unwanted ones ain't easy. that explains my dark eye rounds?

no pictures today. i haven't really post a pic of my new hairstyle yar? haha. soon(:

touch tmr! exciting!!!

2007-05-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

i blogged and it disappear!
in short. i must be strong. i won't rely on anyone anymore. it's all about me and her now. i'll stick with you. loves(:

2007-05-14T20:25:00.001+08:00

WELL DONE!! Ｙ.Ｏ.Ｕ have officially TOP my HATE-list. to stay in the charts, continue to provoke me (i'm absolutely sure you are able to achieve that)

at this point of time, i wish i'm still in SA

guess i won't be able to fit into the crease of anyone's elbows for now.

With great hormones, come great responsibilities. it's from one of the not-so-mono civics talk.

hollys are coming, but i do not see breaks awaiting. instead, i'm leaden with PW, camps, extra lesson( i refuse to use the word remedial coz i dont want to look dumb)

i fear not though coz
i'm a wonder woman so let me go get my rope.
DANGS!

2007-05-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

no time to do shopping. so i resorted to browse-shopping. you get the gist. varies from Topshop and Forever21(:
QY!!! didn't you see this shoe too??

unintentional

new drink? retro feel
pigging after touch training
didn't know she can really sing! woo~
MY GIRL!!

high waist skirts. they will be back in fashion just wait and see! HA
why is my waist as THICK as my hips?!!
Saturday Night wannabe
miss pouty

how childish am i. there is a fine line between arrogance and confidence and somehow i crossed it.

i'm contradicting myself. when the time comes, will i jump at it?? i really want to achieve something. i won't use underhand means. maybe its all about connections? nope i doubt so. lets just see how things goes...

p.s. the above photos are purely for FUN ONLY!! no harm intented!

2007-05-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

snip snip* there goes my gorgeous jetblack hair. hey, its still long just not as cascading...

to patricia: you were there when i was down. i want to be there for you when you're down too. i can be anything for you. punchbag, sandbag, pillow, toilet bowl etc. just throw me all the shite people give you(:(:

i'm at the losing end. i hate this feeling.

2007-05-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

if everything goes smoothly, i'll be going for an immersion to china. 3weeks! woo~ super exciting!! but that equate to missing 3 touch trainings=dread!!! oh wells, that is IF i make it into the team(:

almo

my mama says we're gonna adopt a rabbit from spca soon(: almo looks like gayish whose buried near the railway track.

tempted to touch tempted to touch...

failed chem again. stupid mistakes. cll test today suck to the core. focused on the wrong parts. great!

2007-05-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

小时候
<3pigout session!!!
soft shell crab!! yummy!!

pleasures of life
pigging out!!
reflections
leggies
!!! electrify!

dent & squeeze
her eyes
haha!! she just LOVE stuffing herself like a camel. you want to store food find expo larh!

hahahaha
latest hat model. limited edition.

raisah MUGGING
PLEASE! focus on ME!!

2007-05-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

raisah's loverboy! she said he looked passionate in this. hmmm..
i told her the jellybean can glow in the dark
the unglam one

yes. PW is driving me nuts. i don't know how to do it!!!

coach is down sizing the team to about 20. gosh! its gonna be a tough competition where there are so many potential girls now. physical training tmr. i really need energy booster, like mango&passionfruit yoghurt bar, SA's soursop REAL fruit juice , eye candy etc... there's PC tmr too!! i swear if i'm not a hot and sexy girl at the end of these 2 year course i'm so going to kill all those who made me sweat like a pig on the track! haha. . i guess those people won't have to be afraid at all, coz i already am(:(:(:

okay. i'm just kidding. its not THAT torturous really. i find that i'm enjoying myself more than slightly(:(:(: i still prefer when there's sun(:

2007-04-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

star and pants

when they don't see each other
and when they do..

they freak out.

and i still have assignments to do. guilt is overwhelming me now?now?NOW!!! yeah. its madness

2007-04-27T19:45:00.000+08:00

yeah man! i derserve this slot of blogging which equate to off-the-studying-hook(:

ain't they just the most precious thing on earth? they really deserve the love more than i derserve this time for blogging.
check out those star studs. yup, one of my insanity. they are actually stickers used for charts in kindergarden to tabulate results for Best Pupil or that sort.

hmmm... now who is this stalker??
Compare and Contrast. my phone
and pat's NEW phone. the sleekness and slimness blew me off!
one of those mornings when i question my life.

EEWW~ PUMA*gasp with such force that my lungs almost burst!* REEEEDD!!! *GASPxinfinity!!*

those were the days. nostalgia spreads to the extremity

yes. finally a tiny break from tests and deadlines(:

sueann dear is about to jump on the bandwagon of unrequitted love. you can alight like NOW. don't drag on too much dear. it will pain me to see you so confuse, depress and maybe feel that tinge of inferiority. you are one of the NICEST and SILLIEST girl i've met(:(:(: ther'e's always me here for you(:

and to all of you-know-who out there too(:(:(:

touchy. yay!!

2007-04-24T10:54:00.000+08:00

toxicated stomach is what you will get when you don't eat home cooked food for 2 weeks, always stuffing oily canteen food and insufficient fibre. that's what the doc said. i shall learn my lesson.

and yes, i was being told that my attitude towards school has changed, in comparison to primary and secondary days. like WTH! i have an ulitmate goal to work to okay!! i mean it. if having the enthusiasm in going to sch can get me a wonderful cert and admitted into a fabulous pre-college, i'll embrace and worship it on my knees. but if it doesn't, it only shows that having it won't guarantee much. rather, its about your personal engagement with the subjects taught. so i don't see how missing sch once in awhile can immensely affect my grades, when i'm actually EQUALY(OR MORE) engaged in it at home.

i'm not saying lectures and tutorials are absolutly a redundancy. its there so that THEY can ensure we are, somehow or other, engaged in the subject rather than loitering around and wasting that oh-so precious resource we have in us. like what they are always saying "lectures are platforms for the teachers to disseminate information across the cohort at an efficient rate..." oh wells... i'll still have to ask around for notes that i've missed. it is an ingrained responsibility and righteousness that i've nurtured in my household. so who says i'm lazy!?

2007-04-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

i am my STALKER'S FLOWER!!!
my phone has the RED version!!! MYGAWD!! i love my white too
the field seems so dead without anyone

yay, that's whay i'm talkin' boutour latest insanity
woooo...
this pic epics how i'm feelin
looks like some forgotten place in my dreams

the soccer match was CANCELLED!!! feel my disappointment. yar, i was kinda hoping to see them in action. i guess its alright since they're going to have a rematch(:

i'm actually quite relieve with my pw group(I sympathise yqy) looking forward to work with you people!

沧海月明珠有泪，蓝田日暖玉生烟。
i like these two lines the most. there are tears which are precious, the vast sea to signify the insignificant of oneself and smoke/clouds to mystify the whole atmosphere. by the way, its a love poem i'm learning.

庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶. its like a dream.

wooo... i'm poetic(:

2007-04-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

clips from a game called Doodle. DAMN HILARIOUS!!
just go miniclips.com

JJ vs RJC! anticipates...

2007-04-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

view from canteen. brings back memories(:
our fave spot! the converging point.
(:
who is that stalker! *spies*
the walkway.. the area where we can catch soccer matches too!! woo~
failed attempt to look taller..
gooffyy...
?RAHH!!
our area. you will be missed

(: the sch is going down in a couple of months. there are so many places i can't bear!! the classroom, toilets, canteen, labs and that area.. i'll be back next week(: with more people!!!

2007-04-18T18:06:00.000+08:00

yeah. we're refuelling the fats we've just burnt. wonderful huh?
beautiful teak(or wood?)
boredom!!
woo!!! my girly-craze

you will only know you board the wrong bus when they take a wrong turn, or in a direction you don't expect it to turn to. it only dawn on me when everything goes downhill and i plunge into a bottomless pit. i should start to make plans, like which busstop should i alight and how to get home. yes, how can i find my way to myself.

by the way, i really boarded the wrong bus home today. i know this doesn't happen without a reason, just that i am unaware of it.

screw chem test!

i was just talking about my ankle and today during physical conditioning i felt my ankles hurting. gosh, i can't wait to get new shoes(: i still hope i can get ascis shoes! haha.. though i know adidas is equally comfy(:

2007-04-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

black and red. awesome combination(:
my diligent classmates. randoming
WOO~ leggies!!
rare guest. HA i think i'll see more of her till the season ends
!!!
BAM! jealous? no. i just can't wait... hehe(:
i wonder if its coming... soon

2007-04-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

QingMing. its all hot and sweaty and smoky. really contribute to global warming. tsktsk... after that is pigout and bonding session(: haha.. i've got juicy gossips!
why are our eyes close?
under the tree
sulky her. don't want to pose for me
oh. this young latter has grown pretty much! i see a cutie emerging(:
sighs. i really want to do many things but i can't. why? because i have this strong sense of responsibility and i am a filial child. argh! but this is getting frustrating! *pulls my beautiful long hair*

next week is pack to the MAX!

i have a desire. i will make it happen(:

to the person who is making my miserable, furb!

2007-04-14T21:39:00.000+08:00

weird sauce by qh. she hasn't change much. she actually said its delicious and is an alternative to the norm!
after training. all hot and sweaty! woots!

Death cab for cutie
i'll follow you into the dark

Love of mine some day you will die,
But I'll be close behind.
I'll follow you into the dark.

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:

If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule,
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black,
And I held my tongue as she told me,
"Son, fear is the heart of love."
So I never went back.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:

If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

You and me have seen everything to see;
From Bangkok to Calgary.
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down;
The time for sleep is now.
It's nothing to cry about,
'Cause we'll hold each other soon.
The blackest of rooms.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:

If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

introduced by qy(: thank you so much. this is awesome! its indie and alittle folk.
Ben gibbard's write really well. poemtic, sentimental, romantic... i conclude, i like indie music!

hectic week ahead! i hate to miss training!! argh

2007-04-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

no pictures today as inertia took over my mind and body like a pleasant drug. layman terms, just lazy. probably tmr when i'm out of house(:

ytd. eddy called me through MSN and mind me if i sound noob, I WAS EXTREMELY INTOXCIATED!! he played his new piece 'live' and i wa indulging in it. really, eddy, improve on your vocals and it will be awesome! i can feel your music. missing you lots!

helmi called just to catch up. made my night! haha.. perks me up a little as i am doing my PI. you can call anytime, i will always make time for you(:

2007-04-11T18:29:00.000+08:00

RED!! reminds me of one of qy's nonsensical craze, Red Ranger
this is so apple! loves.

somethings are beyond my control. though i tried not to be involve, it will somehow involve me. how can i turn away from it? i ask myself this question frequently, why should we hold on if the Irks won't dispernse and its hurting all of us? is this what we call power of Love, that it can overcome everything and anything? but what if the love no longer exist, what is it that is holding us back? Commitment? Responsibility? or simply because of Reliance or Dependent? if so, one party will be very tired. i know who it is.

no wonder those thoughts came back to me recently. i remember them vividly. it sent chills back my spine just knowing it had once happened. its a sign. i'm learning to read signs and trust my instincts.

people say once you've hit the lowest point of you life, things will start to turn better. its the mechanics of life. i thought i've hit the bottom already, or there's worse to come? why ain't things going smoothly? or rather peacefully?

why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?
why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?
why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why?why

2007-04-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

没有话题说了！该结束了吗？

can i handle the commitments? what will happen if problems surface? realtionship is a very complex and sensitive subject. there is not one true solution to it. that's the beauty of it, and it can be the death of me.

2007-04-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

on a rainy sunday afternoon. may whoever's-up-there be with the victim
*beams* NO DOUBLE CHIN!!!
SHE and HER remedy

absorbing up the light.

i don't know what is she thinking. i really hope she talks to me. anything will do. if you're sad/angry/frustrated just tell me, i really wanna help. i really wish time is on my side. you on my side..

2007-04-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

why did i even bother to help her. does she appreciates it? i'm just asking for troubles. shite her! shite my good nature. argh!!

2007-04-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

Better Together

[Verse 1:]
There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard,
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things,
Like a shoebox of photographs,
With sepiatone loving,
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart ,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving,
I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together

[Chorus:]
MMM, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

[Verse 2:]
And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone,
When the morning light sings
And brings new things,
But tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too,
Too many things I have to do,
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I'll be under the impression,
I was somewhere in-between
With only two,
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do,
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
MMM, We're somewhere in-between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmmmm Mmmmm Mmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing,
We're better together

2007-04-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

ain't she the sweetest thang ever!
some overdue pictures during the hollys.
she wants people to draw her face. it screams FILL IN THE BLANKS!!

an impromptu cake with impromptu candles=vanilla-flavoured yanyan sticks
the leftovers so, again, the usual. zong ji mi ma. its kinda repulsive esp when you're filled to the brim with nuggets, fries, drink, chocolate and cream
so today is babyblue-sky day with clouds that look like cotton. (lousy attempt to make my sentence interesting. oh wells...)
hit the gym with this girl again. wooo.. she's in Her Ｗorld. "Girl! are you watching the tv or the man and aren't you suppose to be working those abs!!"
end of gyming=styling. woots! beautifully messed
the aftermath of gyming. too much adrenaline i guess.

RAHH!
we're figuring out the mechanics of the shutter

this series of shots are unintentional. haha.. they are actually failed attempts.

YAY!
here comes the queen(of nooblet) and watch how she sashay...
wooo... they're filming and we happened to walk pass. lok out for us in whatever the show is(:
the other part of the day... not much pictures taken as we were all seriously mugging

woo.. my babes!!

fri.6apr. tennis
chicago cheese cake!! she didn't know how to scope the cake up nicely. reminds me of...
pigsy candy.
HAHA.
my fave indulgence
satisfaction. really. motivation

my heart is pumping for you, my sweet escape: shopping.

okay i'm back to my work, PI!!!

2007-04-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

yes. mugging seems to be the only vocab i know these days.. or rather the many days to come..

my sound-proof windows. thank you for faithfully serving and protecting me from those BROOMBROOM produced by lousy car engines!

QIAOYI!! this is the ballet kinda shoe you want right! haha.. i like these but they are costly. 7obucks!!!

colourful bangles to colour up my black-and-white life. oh wells...

anyone need new watch??
argh! browsing through those grossy paper magazines from the malls and looking at those new clothes of the season made me wanna SCREAM for a SHOOPPING SPRREEEEE!! please, stop reminding me i want to go shopping!!! partner? anyone?

2007-03-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

is he really jumping? done by Julian Beever. somthing call anamorphic drawing

the sediments have been disturbed. ruffled up by some disclosed source. just because it cannot be seen doesn't mean doesn't exist. and i thought i had contained it.

gp. i like this topic, but i have my reserves for the teacher. am i slowing down the class or actually engaging them? hmmm...

maths! please made yourself understood and solved. have pity on me and my pathetically dwindling number of brain cells!

i am going to be a scholar!

i will keep be optimistic

and not slack

and give NO attitudes!!!

perhaps i will be an all-rounder too??

2007-03-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

illustrates are drawn to make life intriguing. so i'll let the pictures do the talking for me. they are fragments of my thoughts and feelings..

those were the times....

my babe in action!

how far are we...

miss you lots, eddy

(picture censored) haha...

2007-03-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

on days when i'm moody,

things are kinda blurry

and i misses her brownies so...

and i miss them lots too..

but i look at this and i'll smile(:

i was infuriated this afternoon. ARGH i felt cheated and stressed. thus i hit the gym with qy&pat. wooo... let off some steam.. furobath was AEWSOME!! i was submerged neck down and i felt the heat rising all the way to my head, making me giddy. haha..

then came feasting time(:

2007-03-19T17:32:00.000+08:00

i'm sure you will be familiar with this pic

its the ad for GAP. i was reading the papers and i saw it. i swear he looked right into me and at that precise moment, i thought we made a connection. WOW~ its awesome! and so i did what typical girls when they are smitten with a guy. i searched for his pics, load them into my phone and display it as wallpaper. next was to tell everyone HE'S MINE(:

wxq: check this out!
py: *checks out my phone* oh wow! he's really cute! but you know, he's not straight...

BAM!! there goes my fantasy. why do all good things have to come to an end? *quote from nelly furtado* i grasp. sigh. and look up into the sky. its as blue as ever. oh well... i guess i can't bear to look at him again

okay... last look??

term2 week1. i guess we just have to get used to seeing ourselves in another colour. my emotion? like a void room with many reverberations. well, it used to be just void. now there's sound/echo hovering around. blessing in disguise? definitely pray so.

i finally got my uniform(:

2007-03-13T08:22:00.000+08:00

wow! from that moment onwards i knew my life is going to change. i admit i am afraid, who isn't? is it really my attitude problem? its getting so frustrating! i wonder if i could cope?

i feel torn in many directions.

2007-03-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

we were vivo-ing someday. wahh.. i like the theme of this Food Republic(:

chicago cheese cake is DA BOOM!!!

cow business><

one day during chem lec, we were so bored that we did this.

one of the most successful chem prac. wooh~ nice vibrant colours!

sueann!

beaming from ear to ear. why? cause of...

the following pics were taken today. well, we're just treasuring our time tgh

is it straight? sa new inverted kinda fan(:

emoing. something i'm gd at[:

now you see sueann...

now you don't! she didn't know i was going to do that. silly girl

i wasn't posing. sueann just love this face of mine.

sueann, when she's young& innocent...

sueann when she's old and scandalising... nottie nottie!

Ice honey latter! woooh!

the day end wit me and mum walking home under the streetlights. wooh~ loves her. loves my class too(: all of us are feeling the need to spend more time tgh. postings out nxt tues what. so moving on..

i'm feeling lethagic just thinking about attending another orientation. yar.. have to make new friends agian! i mean i love it, just energy draining.

Just so you know, Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you,
but I want too.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move.
I can't look away. (2x)

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
I just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

It's getting hard to,
be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.

Just so you know.
This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go. (Just so you know)

This emptiness is killing me,
I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize,
it was always there,
just never spoken.
I'm waiting here,
been waiting here.
Just so you know,
this feeling's take control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.
(Whoa,
Just so you know,
Whoa,
Thought you should know.)
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go,
just so you know.
Just so you know.

(spreading the love bahbehs!)

i'll post again with more pics(: haha..

till then. TAKE CARE!

2007-02-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

say i'm a Hermit. i won't deny it. i'm good at hiding my true most felt emotions. it is for defence, for creating an image i want, for pride and dignity, for myself. hypocrite? alittle i guess so don't be fooled. to those who really know me, i'm really glad i have you(:

YOU. what a loser!

2007-02-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

tuesday was vivo-ing with classmates. hmmm... distracted? maybe.

wed. valentines day. oh my oh my.. i was not feeling good. i sort of isolated myself. i really felt lousy. i did that not because i got no lover or whatever shite, just don't feel good. kinda confuse and puzzled. then pat msg me and ask me out. i accepted it immediately. talk talk talk talk.. and suddenly i don't feel so heavy and gloomy(: she really made me feel better. i'm really glad she's there for me(: maybe 'cause we're in the same boat?

sch today was okay. i went out with mama after sch and i finally got the stuff i want(:

i'm also glad to know that yishu has chose to go jc. though i don't know whether is it the correct choise but i really hope it is(:

crap. i have alot of things to say but now i'm blank. Argh!
Because you live
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl (you live)
My world (my world) has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, I live

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world (my world) has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl (because you live)
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

this goes out to those who have helped me up when i'm down(: you know who you are.

2007-02-13T08:28:00.000+08:00

am i in the wrong? afterall, i've been the only child for 16years. suddenly i have someone watching and learning my every moves... its flattering but uncomfortable! i never thought that this will give me additional unhappiness. on a happier note, i'm glad my mother is finally doing something constructive(in my context)

my results are average. sometimes what i say is so damn freaking true. so i'll watch my words next round. i hope i can stay in sa. my friends? haha. ask them lar! some ppl like yishu i have to comment. he is one intelligent and lucky guy. hai. please make the right choice ok!!

wahh... i saw this really nice Fox white skirt which cost 43bucks! tsktsk.. this was the outcome of the hours of shopping at bugis with qy. we were both dead beat after that.. more shopping today at vivo(: argh, please let me find something i really want!

lonely valentines. no lover. no close friends by my side.

2007-02-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

results are out tml. i've got it all plan out: if its good, i'll go out to eat. if not, i'll chiong home to cry. yes. what about you?

met with him that day. my gosh. he is going through the exact same thing as i did. my heart goes out to him. really. i mean that girl is so Bitch! argh! i really hope he can get over it soon.. really soon..

qy came to sa today. we activated our Third Eye. yes. what a feast! haha.. then the rugby match. this sch, OMG, brought a batch of supporters and they were cheering. mind you, they were all boy. then our sch... improve quite a bit i think(: 2 casualties. kinda sad. and qy&i had free ride back to bbss. then someone doubt my sincerity! tsktsk...

results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoever's up there... help me can?? please help my friends too(:

takecare.

2007-02-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

love fiesta. tiring. met some ppl i want to see. faiz lend me his boots. saw some ppl and i felt dao-ed. maybe what someone told me is true. no matter how how i dread it, deny it, avoid it prevent it, somehow or other it will still happen.. maybe this is what time is doing to us. we can't fight it. maybe we can only take photos to capture those moments and appreciate it later on in our lives. maybe its the only way to make time stand-still.

results out next week?gosh! heard some really unpleasant info. i've planned my moves for all outcome. but does that mean i will/can accept the outcome if its bad?

got to know some pretty shocking info as well. but i don't think it is vaild as an excuse for your actions. i think you're feeling aweful as you've never told anyone about it.. for that, i forgive you.

2007-01-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

yes. i've decided to eat the Pattaya Rice on day and i saw the auntie squeezing mayo and chilli. i decided to help her alittle by doing this(:

the above this done by eddy. 嗨！it reminds me of the unsuccessful scarpbook we wanted to make for him, and how i didn't manage to see him off. haha.. study groups wouldn't be the same without him, class wouldn't be as hilarious without him and 4e2 wouldn't be as memorable without him. i don't know how you're coping over there(please don't dwell into her too long!) but the gatherings won't be the same ever again as you are no longer here with us. All of us,esp carline, hope someday we can fly over to see you coz we miss you dearly!!

2007-01-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just want to run back to the mould i had created. i fit so perfectly and comfortably. i know it takes time, plently of time, understanding and love. today, i'm feeling so drained somehow. i want turn back time. i miss everyone

i'm not trying to be an outcast or whatever. i'm mixing well and the ppl are just awesome! esp my classmates(:

2007-01-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing on beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
The kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rhythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh, I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game?
dIGITAL lOVE. latest craze(:

i'm very emotional right now. coz of the show that just ended and the last chapter of a book i've just read. its all about respect, compromising and being truthful.
'Death ends a life, not a relationship'

that is why Love wins. why Love always wins.

i hope i can be a better person after i've read the book. i guess i'll never finish it.

back to the more tangible things. i went shopping with mama today. you know when you're young and growing up, buying clothes can be troublesome. esp at the age of about 12? its when the transition begins and you don't know when is the right time to cross over the line to become older. in this case will be from being a child to teenage, adolescence,adulthood, middleage, senior citizen. i think my mama is at one of these phrase of life. i find it hilarious because my mama actually thought of it, but painfully real at the same time----it remains me of her age and mine. I can't imagine my strongwill mama would one day still give up to whoever's-up-there. i don't want to go on. you can go figure the rest of my thoughts.

i shall go back to my tutorials. Partial Fraction, MAKE YOURSELF UNDERSTOOD~!!

2007-01-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

tutorial starts today and the first tutorial was econs(: we were split into groups and were given land and resources(eg paper for fuels, toothpicks for plantations etc). so we are suppose to built cars houses with specific materials. so if you lack in one of those 'resources' you have to trade with the other countries. haha... all of a sudden i could see the aunty side of the girls and all of us were haggering for this and that. i love my group's end product. when ihave the picture i'll post it up(:

another sub is cse!! omg~ i'm suddenly so intimidated by all the ppl there. i mean they all seem to know more than me! i really regretted not listening to daddy for he's always urging me to read the papers. argh!! i feel like i've zero knowledge and totally laggin behind.

touch trials are tomorrow. gosh! i think i'm really going to die terribly.the norm-pe had already left me with cramps all over. not to mention that touch is one of the most popular cca with great achievements so naturally the standards will be sky-high. Argh! why didn't i exercise during holidays??!...oh, i was working.

eh.. expanding social circle. like what sueann told me, socialising and making friends can be tedious and tiring. with all the names to remember, finding topics to talk about and fun joy &laughter. also, my eyes are sooo tired! everyday i go home, i'll be so shag that i literally drop dead on the bed. haha..

i hope all my babes and hunks out there are doing fine in where ever you are.
to siva, we better meet up SOON! i know you're popular and busy and stuff but it's ME i'm talking about yar! wahhhhahaha..
to the USUALs: i miss you loads!! esp carline! haven't seen you in ages okay! msg me when you see this post(which i doubt she will read)

did i mention i had a small fall during pe? i scraped my knee alittle bit. erm.. i can see many ppls' heads shaking. maybe qy and von will be laughing at me. only pat will sympathise me. haha.. i know i should stop this phenomenon. but how?

2007-01-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

i once blogged about the many departments in one life. examples are Family, Friends, Studies and BGR etc(this theory is by a friend, to a friend). it goes like this: when one or more of your departments is filled, as in satisfied, the others will naturally fall into place. that was the reason why She can achieve so much. i was voraciously jealous of her for one short period of time.

today in the paper, one article says" good-quality relationships are one of the strongest sources of a person's well-being. Resonate relationships are like emotional vitamins, sustaining us through tough times and nourishing us daily.." All the departments except for Studies involves people and relationships and She did excellent in the Family, Friends and BGR dep. so there is absolutly no reason for the other dep to fail her right?

Now, i can understand why. The envious feeling is long gone. i wonder if this theory still stand. if so, i'll post the similar question again: when will the time come?

just random thoughts(:

2007-01-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

lectures!! woo~ okay. i'm taking H2 maths chem and econs and H1 china studies(yes, i can see ppl's mouth dropping and grasping) its my first choice. my classmates, which i've only met today, are nice ppl. i'm still struggling with names. don't blame me! og is still doing well(: and i feel much comfortable with them then anyone else(:

me&michelle hmmm.. my partner in 'crime'

acjc on thurs. that noobist qy was drooling all the way. haha. she brought a friend with her, yc. hmmm... easy-going. then he went and did something that made the whole situation kinda awkward but i just acted blur-.- i mean what else can i do? keep quiet and make the whole thing more weird??!!

today. you know, i've like only one lecture per day! that's so Argh! i guess i'm used to keeping myself busy. lunch at macpherson again. busstop to fetch qy. toured the sch with many seniors approaching us. eheh.. third eye darting ard. wahahaha... bbss cca open house. the juniors were so Argh! i'm so glad i gave up and not commit myself back! saw the ppl i wanna see. somehow i feel not part of them anymore. the feel is different? dinner. the rest were just crap

qy&pat. noobist and laggy. hahaa..

qy: haha.. i have dimple and you don't!!

xq:like i CARE!! hmph~

for other pics visit yqy's blog. haha.. i'm lazy to edit them.

tutorials start next week. class has some intimedating ppl. i look forward to more happening stuff. trials? my chances are slim. Argh! i really wanna join! if not i'll go for clubs.

Scenario 1: Friend scare of dog. Friend happen to be walking last in line and dog was going to be let out of the room .Friend panic and hurries the ppl in front. result? someone tripped and fell and hurt some places. blueblacks: 1

Scenario 2: Someone happily cycling and enjoying the breeze. BOOM! collide with another bike and nurt badly. Blue-black numbers? numerous!!

Scenario 3: Friend is together with that Someone. happily walking down the stairs and WHEE~ down went that Someone, slipping on the slippery floor and flying a couple of stairs. fall number3 with blueblack at the bum-.-

is this a disease or what?

2007-01-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

last day of orientation. haha. today wasn't as taxing as the others and i feel that my og had bonded really well(: my og even won something so unexpectedly! haha.. and we thought we were art-decline peeps. the disco night was abit...erm.. religious. i mean hey, the songs are awesome and i was like screaming and jumping like nobody's business with my og mates. i yelled till my throat hurts and ran ard the hall. i was high! then my og mates left tgh to have supper at this hawker. we had nice interesting conversations and we were having hell of the time!!

i love my ogs. we're having lectures next week and we plan to go tgh too(: like wow~ i'm sure the other ogs are doing so too(: good job everyone!!

and to all my babes out that, i still miss you! and my ncc family. i really don't know how to express my feelings for all of you...

sa. one family unbroken.

i miss mummy and daddy~

2007-01-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

first day of sch and i was late. you see, i'm seldom late so i was abit not myself the whole day. anyway, the sch's is ENORMOUS!! haha.. but i found my place(: everything went pretty okay i guess. my legs still hurt. my og still needs to be more enthu too(:

as neha was tell me after sch(which apparently end at 6 plus. DAMN SHAGGED!), the culture is pretty much like bb but the boys are so much cuter! *laughs deliriously* hehe. yar. tomorrow is more fun and the sun.

i hope everyone out there is having fun too(:

2007-01-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

last day of 2006. my family and i slacked around at home... well, we didn't. its me and mama doing chores with The King snoring away. hahaha.. then they sent me down to work(last day) and they went to date at esp. wow!

work was no as good. i wasn't feeling too good and somehow to customers and everything didn't seem to go smoothly. but all was well again after awhile(: i left happily(:

i met my parents at raffle place and we walked to clifford pier to catch the fireworks(:

so today.. i woke up early and we went UBIN!!! wahahaha... i wasn't very excited initially. my folks got a two-sit bike while i got the normal ones(: all was well until we were on our way to chek jawa and i fell. yes qy von pat, i fell again face downwards. rmb? anyway, it was a worse fall. i hurted my legs badly. i was going down a steep slope and i stupidly collided with another bike in front of me-.- i was flunged to the side of the mud road with the bike somehow tangled between my legs. i thought i broke them. haha. i didn't cry. what he did afterwards made me. all in all, i still had fun and i don't mind visiting again(:

i have 3 huge blueblacks on my legs with cuts
my cousin is coming tomorrow. no more whole-room-belongs-to-me attitude. haha.

stpeh: STOP THIS TYRANNY!!

haha.. i'll be nice to her(cross fingers)

i have pictures but no time to upload.

2006-12-29T15:55:00.000+08:00

sequel of 2006
this will be my skin for '07(cross my fingers)

this week(till now) was supposedly be fun joy and laughter but i was down with high fever on wed so most of my plans were cancelled. but i still managed to meet up with my prisch mates(: they've grown up, literally and somehow i'm proud of them, just like a mother beaming when ppl praises her children. weird. they all seem so intelligent!! haha..

i'm no longer going to be a fisherian. i really wish to continue by there are odds against it. very frustrating but i'll accept it. i wanna thank whoever's up there for giving me this opportunity to work with them(: though its only a short period of time, i really appreciate all who had helped me! thanks for making my first job experience so wonderful(: so get out all you fisherians at glasshouse and get those customers hooked! see you soon..

2006 is coming to a close. i'm reluntant to let go.. why can't everything just go on? am i being too stubbon? i'm going to experience another first-time on 3jan. haha.. quote: when was the last time you have tried something for the first time? well, this time i'm filled with excitment, uncertainty and anxiety. how will things turn out?

gosh.. my fever is coming back and i'm running out of medicine and loz.!! haha.. please don't come back!!